Ugh, thing were going so well, and I fucked it all up. My life i starting to go well and now the only thing missing is him… and I can’t handle it. I miss him so much it physically hurts.
Its officially his birthday. I am going to put these messy feelings aside and make sure his day goes well tomorrow. See that? I’m learning to put someone before myself…
Now, that’s progress.
"A mistake repeated more than once is a decision."
Things are so strange and working so well… I love it.
The only thing that sucks is when its night and I’m lonely and all I want is his chest to lay on. So many aspects of my life are getting so much more happy and fun, yet this seems to still sting the worst.
I miss your heart beats, and the 5 breaths it takes for me to catch up to yours.
One day, I know it. But for now, this is going to get fun.